TALK TO ME

i remember when my grandma told me not to listen to other people when they said anything about jem or discouraging me from going to new york. she told me not to tell people how we met and amanda said that a lot of people meet online nowadays and my grandma was probably just being paranoid. i was thinking about this a little today and i'm not sure if it's that he's afraid of commitment (like to a relationship to a girl) or he just has another girlfriend. it's gotta be one of these two or that he just doesn't like me and i don't mean to sound full of myself but every single guy that i've ever liked has always liked me back.. (maybe because i'm not stupid and i don't go crushing over everything with legs) sure, i had those stupid crushes in school over guys that every other girl wanted when i was younger and in school, i'm not talking about then. maybe he's just not ready to make a relationship yet or something but that doesn't look good in kathy's eyes and she's the one who's helping me move to new york. she claimed that she tried to get ahold of him by the phone numbers that i gave her and she said that no one picked up. i kinda would like someone to at least speak to when i move and i'm not sure if andrew will be okay. i might just have to settle for him, if i can't get ahold of jem.